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Saturday, February 23rd, 2008
2:35 am	2 a.m. is a funny hour, if you're for some reason not sleepy, which I was a few minutes ago.... Over the very annoying mosquitoes, which can't seem to die in either the heat or the cold or at the height, many thoughts flit by. Very interesting. Since I haven't written in a while, I could try and see if this helps. 3 years ago I would have promptly called up a friend to get rid of this feeling but now I'm surprsied how I've managed to lose people so fast that I can't call anyone right now. * maybe I could tell you about the 11 o'clock stroll I had around the block. I've lived here for over 2 years and this is the first time I"ve done it and not the first time I"ve thought about it. Something keeps you from wandering off alone - maybe it's concern that people would look at you as a friendless soul or it could just be fear of accepting the same to yourself. Sometimes its just laziness, other times it's strangely boredom. But on every detour I plan to take around the park always ends up at the supermarket with extra eggs and spare maggi packets. * I've been laughing myself silly over all mothers doing everything right for their children. Tuitions, coaching classes, painting classes, singing classes, dancing classes, abacus classes(whats with that? I'm sure Vedic Maths would serve the purpose much better than shifting coloured beads) .. and it was unbelievable to see a mother of an 11 years old enrolling her son for Computer classes, on prodding she proudly said they would teach him Microsoft. Barely anyone seems to be talking to less than a 10 years old in any native Indian language, hardly anyone seems to be spending any time at the swings, do kids even read anymore? An article in TOI today told the story of a parent arguing with an english teacher that there was no benefit from reading novels. I told my Mom about all that and she reminds me of the time when we were 7 and my dad forced me into Hindustani classical music lessons. And painting classes... I think I pressurized them to let me join the dance class though. He tried very hard you know... he got us 10th class syllabus books when we were ... umm.. I think in 8th or probably even earlier. But alas! we were out of control long before then. Thank God for small mercies. * What else... I'm finally getting comfortable being single. Yes, I know it's been 3 years or more and I've pretty much been okay about it but I know I'm 100% fixed now. I know because I watched 'Enchanted" without a touch of loneliness. :D And the realization felt good too. And I loved the movie. And so affirms the blogthings quiz (affirms that I am a to-the-core single) * I recognize how I've spent such a huge part of my life being insecure and I hope that I'm working one thing at a time feeling better about myself. * For everyone else I forgot to tell, actually I think I told a total of about 6 and my immediate family is 3 out of that, that I'm through SIBM and SCMHRD and the reason why I probably didn't tell anyone is that I've not exactly jumping with joy. I'm also planning to write my GMAT sometime before the last day I can withdraw my fees from SIBM. So if I do get a decent score then I wait another year to app next season. I do get that this is a do or die for me... but almost everything is a do or die ... but why I'm so particular about this is because the back- up plan sends me to SIBM, with or without a GMAT score. I've not woked hard for anything in a long time but man! it's a lame excuse but I wasn't the one who decided that I should do a B.E. in telecom. But I want to do this MBA right and for the one thing that I am sure I want to do, I should do it right, no matter how out of touch I am. There was more but all the typing seems to have driven the thoughts away... Read 'Moth Smoke' by Mohsin Ahmed, it's terrific and it is 3 times better than "The Reluctant Fundamentalist". This blog has plagiarized the style from my friend Sravishta's entry in her own. Good Night. Current Mood: awake (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 9th, 2007
1:17 pm	Someone must've heard me up there coz... Last Monday I was complaining that it rained every weekend without fail and was sunny during the weekdays, which had happened 5 weekends out of maybe 7-8, which was too freaky to be just a coincidence. And well, when the clouds gathered on Friday it rained beyond Sunday to Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday (today). So someone must've heard that I didn't like the conspiracy against me and decided to use less obvious means to sabotage my plans. Looking forward to Friday. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Janis Joplin-Mercedez Benz (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 6th, 2007
12:38 pm	Writers Block I recognize that I haven't written a word in my journal or anthing of any consequence anywhere and no matter how hard I try I am unable to come up with any thoughts or line or direction. It is somewhat scary, since whatever I write, amateurish or otherwise, it does feel liberating. I also know that whenever rarely I do go back and read it I cringe at the appalling work but well... it does feel good . Perhaps it is lack of anything new, with everything sinking into routine; non-challenging, mundane and numbing. Nothing to look forward to, no plans long or short term. ------------------------------------------ The horoscope in the TOI and the Mumbai Mirror both say that I would have a frustrating/emotionally distressing day today(or something to that effect). Which seems to be all I need just now, more stress and distress to top the uncertainty already looming over me. Phew! And I wish there were stability!!! Rather paradoxical. Maybe I need more important things at stake though that seems impossible because I also seem to have driven every component in life to sedation. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 7th, 2007
7:01 pm	The problem with Monday is that I am normally completely blank. I don't remember what is where in which folder, which interface or project was I working on last etc. The problem with vacations is that you need to practically re-do everything that was done in the last week at work. And the problem with a Bangalore trip is that since Blore is familiar, one tends to completely forget that I even graduated. And I am finding this place, the people and even the house rather alien. (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 24th, 2007
1:31 am	You Are 68% Open Minded You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. How Open Minded Are You? (22 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 12th, 2007
6:14 pm	Excerpts 'For a long while I have believed- this is perhaps my version of Sir Darius Xerxes Cama's belief in a fourth function of outsideness - that in every generation there are a few souls, call them lucky or cursed, who are simply born not belonging, who come into the world semi-detached, if you like, without strong affiliation to family or location or nation or race; that there may even be millions, billions of such souls, as many non-belongers as belongers, perhaps; that, in sum, the phenomenon may be as "natural" a manifestation of human nature as its opposite, but one that has been mostly frustrated, throughout human history, by lack of opportunity. And not only by that: for those who value stability, who fear transience, uncertainity, change, have erected a powerful system of stigmas and taboos against rootlessness, that disruptive, anti-social force, so that we mostly conform, we pretend to be motivated by loyalties and solidarities we do not really feel, we hide our secret identities beneath the false skins of those identities which bear the belongers' seal of approval. But the truth leaks out in our dreams; alone in our beds (because we are all alone at night, even if we do not sleep by ourselves), we soar, we fly, we flee........ And in the waking dreams our societies permit, in our myths, our arts, our songs, we celebrate the non-belongers, the different ones, the outlaws, the freaks. What we forbid ourselves, we pay good money to watch, in a playhouse or movie theatre, or to read about between the secret covers of a book. Our libraries, our palaces of entertainment tell the truth. The tramp, the assassin, the rebel, the thief, the mutant, the outcast, the delinquent, the devil, the sinners, the traveller, the gangster, the runner, the mask: if we did not recognise them in our least-filled needs, we would not invent them over and over again, in every place, in every language, in every time.' -Salman Rushdie Ground beneath her feet. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 14th, 2006
7:16 pm	God Sometimes- just sometimes, things seem so fair and work out of so beautifully/perfectly that you just want to believe in a higher power. Trivial things but still. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:41 pm	Nice I don't like people who are not nice and try to be nice.  You could offer or say something out of being nice but please don't crib about the sacrifice or regret the implications and the expectations.  And never do it half- heartedly. Current Mood: drained Current Music: some music on the radio (Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2006
7:52 pm	Ayn rand went completely mad before she died. This I read off in a friends orkut profile... I'm doing the same thing that she claimed she was doing then.. wondering. This fact is running in my head like a stuck tape, over and over again. Current Music: lot of noise around my desk (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 9th, 2006
5:26 pm	There is a formula for happiness which i believes gives extraordinary weigtage to letting go... of everything that pricks and everything that soothes... I also think that civilization and evolution of mankind largely depends of one not being happy and constantly being so unhappy and dissatisfied that it drives us to do something... but then any hapiness is shortlived and that too passes. There is a choice on being on either paths and happiness if you ask me is the easiest and wisest solution, but the ones who do not take this, do so not out of choice but because they can't. This decision is just genetically written in all of us, this decision and no amount of cultivation and conditioning can change that. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
2:26 pm	I swear it's good fun the Comic (42% dark, 15% spontaneous, 47% vulgar) your humor style: VULGAR | COMPLEX | LIGHT Yours is the most versatile and also the most popular kind of humor. You'll crack a joke about just about anything, but you're not mean-spirited or intimidating, so you can get away with it--even when, for example, you bust on Mexicans. You appreciate a good dirty joke as much as next person, but, over all, you've got a brainier approach to humor than most. Now just go out there and write up a routine; it's likely you'd be good at it. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Dave Chappelle - Rodney Dangerfield The 3-Variable Funny Test! - it rules - If you're interested, try my best friend's best test: The Genghis Khan Genetic Fitness Masterpiece My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on darkness You scored higher than 99% on spontaneity You scored higher than 99% on vulgarity Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 13th, 2006
8:04 pm	ALL NICE AND ELIGIBLE MEN ARE TAKEN. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 14th, 2006
2:04 pm	***You Are a Dreaming Soul*** Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul What Kind of Soul Are You? http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofsoulareyouquiz/ Current Music: Rain-madonna (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
10:12 pm	Truth and Beauty Truth and Beauty as opposed to Happiness. Very obviously, I was reading Brave New World. When you wish that there was a pen in your hand and a paper to it, and the pen just moves... further and further.. zeroing in on what you were thinking. Like a point in space, dark and you just know taht you are moving towards it. But then I write truth and beauty and I just don't know how to move the pen. But the grip on it is steady and tight. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
12:53 pm	Umm... when you think... don't you like say it in your head? No i'm not going to say thta what if there was no language or some suc9h thing... but have you like got the feeling sometimes that you said it slowly... like in slow motion .. like you're thinking in slow motion and the moment you're getting out of it you realise that it was in slow motion... i know i'm not making sense :D .... and then this is different. In a dream, I very often trip or fall or do something involuntary very fast... a reflex. and you get out of the dream and actually perform a jerk of the movement... eerily happened like a million times to me (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
4:57 pm	If one century's philosophy is the next's common sense, are people getting smater emotionally over generations? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 18th, 2006
10:48 pm	Visions Shit! This can't feel that good. A memory which you thought was history and never haunt you, over which you had control and which was yours only to savour. Scary that it can be triggered by the most trivial things and sweeps over you altering your mood and bringing back pain like it was past only a few minutes. I also question my stubbornness to hold on to what should promptly be left behind. Like pain you take pleasure in. Whether I hold it because i hold it with pride as a proof of my supposed morality or I hold it to primarily take pleasure in the pain is not so clear. I am also afraid that it is the former and that is another example of my rigidity which I have recently become conscious(aware) of. (Comment on this)
9:11 pm	damn funny! Now I know that all these mails are routine to most girls' profiles on orkut... but come on... I fail to understand, these guys actually think i am going to mail back to such rubbish! I wish I was in collge, I'm in the mood of a phone mob. How are you..how is life going on..Myself Mayur and i am a Software engineer working in bangalore..I saw your profile in orkut..i would like to talk to you more...i hope you will if you dont have any problem and in case if you have any problem please do tell me...i hope that we can talk soon...in case you can call me my number is 09886299429...i am not asking for your number because i know its hard to trust anyone just like that..so if you will not call me up then also its ok..anyways looking forward for a mail or reply from your side and a good friend in you( although i think that friends are always nice and good because thats why they are friends...)...so more abt me...basically i am from a joint family..there i have my caring grandmother..my loving mom and dad ...my affectionate uncle and aunty..my big bro who is always there to keep and eye on me :)...my sweet and lovely cousins..and my friends..ohhhh i forget one ...our sweet little parrot( mikki )...thats all my family whom i love alott...whatever i am today is because of them...have learnt alot of things from them..be it care,love, affection, trust, understanding others,putting others needs before us, importance of feelings, emotions, sentiments and what not....list is never ending...and i dont want to bore you...now abt my hobbies..i like reading, listining music, making others happy and i like to make nice and good friends although i think that friends are always nice and good because thats why they are friends...so now your turn...tell me more about yourself...looking forward for a mail from your side..and also a good friend in you... Bye n take care with all the best wishes to you for everything you want, desire, and deserve in life.... Mayur Bhatnagar (27 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 14th, 2006
11:04 pm	Infatuation It's amazing how a mild passing fancy for a person can simply sweep you off your feet, lift spirits, make you fly. And come to thing of it, it's just hormones. A complex function of the human brain and body, but in the end it is still hormones. (Comment on this)
11:02 pm	Virtual Machine The concept of a virtual machine, just a simple idea... to simulate reality. After all everything is logical; action-reaction. Simple and yet it challenges technology and science to it's limits. Isn't this the beauty of imagination, the power of simplicity. (Comment on this)